You decided that your circumstances need you to close yourself?
you made the walls of concrete and you shifted your emotional availability
Just like that
because you want your sanity or is it inner running because you are tired. You need a break. It has been a lot to comprehend and I understand if you need soaking and application time for your growth now.
Still, I (my worldly being) am left astonished and baffled, unable to comprehend. How can someone just kill the feelings? It’s impossible, because you say you love me still. With a fear and pain in your voice dipped in your true love you asked me to not to ever leave you but we can’t be lovers…..let’s be friends….sounds filmy and cliched, doesn’t it?
You also say that if he asks you to choose then it will be him and never me. Because you are conditioned and your circumstances will make you do that.
So then this must be my learning to stay in unconditional love. To be there for you and love you no matter what. You are there no matter what too but you are subjected to free will, karma and choices that you are making.
I will stay in love. I will rejoice and bathe in it for this highest vibration pushes me to reach back home, and my Universe was never separated from you.
I have loved others truly, before I met you. But never felt devoted and at home. I will love you today and eternally. And I can and will love others on my way, but it just wont be ever like I love you. For I am still In Love with You.
You are Me, I am You, inseparable.